Thoughts, Feelings, Behaviour – PhMuseum

I discover cultural islands via emotional isolation: a shared but private loneliness formed by self-reliance. In staged pictures, a solitary determine is trapped in a loop between self-absorption and vulnerability.

Embodied Condition

I’ve lived with continual insomnia, anxiousness, and recurring states of heightened bodily alertness for many of my grownup life. My relationship historical past has been fragmented, and I’ve lengthy held the idea that I need to handle by myself, unbiased of others.  & To my understanding, there’s nothing uncommon about this expertise. Only later in life, nearly forty, after beginning a household and turning into a part of a small neighborhood, have I begun to replicate extra clearly on my former self as a product of its time, formed not solely by private experiences and trauma, but additionally by cultural second.

Cultural Islands

My venture approaches the theme of cultural islands via emotional isolation. This, nonetheless, is a paradox: loneliness is each a deeply private expertise and a extensively shared situation. The contradiction is additional intensified by a really perfect of freedom that emphasizes individuality, the place self-focus, introspection, manifestation and neurotic tendencies change into entangled.

Thoughts, Feelings, Behaviour

My ongoing venture Thoughts, Feelings, Behaviour (2025–) consists of staged pictures of an nameless, absolutely painted nude feminine determine remoted inside a studio. Positioned towards saturated fields of color and technical surfaces, the physique seems heavy, reclined, or self-directed, caught in a closed loop.

In the photographs, ornamental buttercream truffles, frames, a quad bike, knives, snakes, a drone and a therapeutic massage chair additionally tackle their very own roles. Through these components, I discover the interrelations between need, superficiality, aggression and melancholy.

Image as Material

Aesthetically, I draw on the experience I’ve gained via my work and thru directing fashions inside trend pictures. At the identical time, I blur the boundary between pictures and portray by additional processing my pictures on paper. I discover how several types of paper, the scanning course of, and the consequences of spontaneous stains and creases alter the character and interpretation of the {photograph} – like portray with a grimy brush.

Absorbed in oneself

The works are primarily based on my curiosity in capturing a determine trapped inside itself, but blind to its personal shadows and the dim ambiance it produces. The venture is underpinned by my reflections on the alternation between superficial self-sufficiency and self-loathing vulnerability. The friction and shut oscillation between these two opposing forces seem to me as a means of being on this planet, as bodily sensations, and as a situation: lovelessness arising from those that deeply lengthy for love.